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i know its been forever, but if anyone on here is interested to what has happened to me, its been a long bumpy ride, and many other journals for your viewing pleasure (not really)
but i shall be starting a new journal -- when i end up moving to florida at the end of the year. it shall be over at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) reikinique -- that is, if anyone is interested. i hope to hear from some people, its been so long.
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[05 Sep 2002|03:06pm] |
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Figured i'd put in a quick update from my folx house (yes, my parents let me use the internet, so it's all well and good) and let you know what's been happening in my neck of the woods.
Well, the house is awesome still. Been keeping pretty good tabs on keeping the house clean. It's been cool because every night when i come home, there's always people there. Last night i came home to Greg, Drago, Rory, Juese, Sarrah, chad and my other half Lisa Berry sitting around. They had watched Wild Zero (damnit i wanted to see that :-P) and we all talked for a while. I got my pocky (Yay!) which i have to pick up a box of strawberry to keep me satisfied at work tonight. And then I can remove my stuff from one bag to another to keep myself going with not carrying so much crap into the building with me at once.
My laptop started acting up today when i woke up, hopefully it wont continue to keep acting up, and things will be well and good, but i dont know.*keeps fingers crossed*
Had started rp'ing on occassion with my friend dh01 again.. man i missed RP'ing with him... he's got that charm that i was always used to... and using new characters... it's always more fun to attempt something ^^.
Anyway, I'm gonna go for now, gonna brush out my hair (I never dry it with a hair dryer anymore) run to Fredonia State and pick up the forms to fill out for applying to the school, then fill out the finnancial aide forms tonight. hopefully school will be in my sights for next semester... we'll keep praying man!
ja minna! Oh, and lyss, email me or such when would be a good time to get in contact with ya! it's no problem on my end.... ^^.
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wow... amazing, I posted some stories on ff.net just for the hell of it, and got three great reviews for three of my stories. Are my skills really that good for writing?
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| Thoughtfulness at a night shift... |
[30 Aug 2002|10:23pm] |
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*laughs a little to herself* It's funny when you're thinking about alot of things, all from a conversation with family you dont see all the time. My cousin Gordy (who yes, is indeed 20 years older than my mother, but he still is a really nice man), his daughter, my second cousin Laurie and I were out on the porch talking about alot of things, most of them being aspects with my family, where I want to go with my life, and what i should do in terms of achieving that goal.
It's strange, isn't it? The conversation brought up some aspects of my "love life status" ( which of course is a basic nilch.... *sighs* Mou...-_-) and it made me wonder.... is it because my father was indeed the selfish, worthless bastard that he always has and will be in terms of treating me like shit? Is it true that mom is just so worried that i'm NOT going to make it in this world, that she constantly attempts to "remind me" even though it hurts alot of times? Is that why my self esteem isnt up to where it should exactly be?
I sometimes look at myself in the mirror, and i wonder.... 'What would it take for me to be happy?'
*laughs again, shakily a bit* It's just something that I always tend to think about. Could I definitely improve myself better than before? Is there something more to my life than i'm seeing? Is there going to be a chance for me to find someone who would be at the least remotely interested in who I am, and not like me as a friend because, I'm someone's friend who can get me in good with them?
I know that I have a long way to go with what I want to do with my life. I'm only 21 for Christ sakes, and I'm still trying to figure out who I am. I know that where I am right now.... I don't know it just feels right. I know this about myself:
1) I'm a big nature lover. I love being out near the water. Living on the beach by the lake or the ocean, just where you can watch the sunset on a really nice day. The kind where the sun just touches... the water is always so calm and nice
2) as you could guess, i'm a big sunset fan. I love when the sunsets are so bright red/orange where it makes the rest of the sky light up in really gorgeous hues.
3) Pictures. I've really been into taking pictures whenever I can possibly get the chance. I love when i have a great time getting really decent scenery shots of sunsets and stuff. My Best friend Jon said he liked some of my work, but then again we share alot of the same interests in terms of Nature, and music, and such... so it's only natural.
4) My friends are another deep important thing in my life. Without the friends i made just within the last semester, I don't know what i would have done.
a) My best friend Jon- Someone who has meant a great deal in my life recently in terms of people that I can trust. I met him through Michi last year, and we've been really close good friends for about... almost a year come this december. *laughs* It's hard to believe that things have progressed this far already. The time is flying by.
b)My College Friends- I met all of them through Michi, (which this includes michi, I cant forget her at all), and I became and was accepted by the group. Heck, i'm living with three of my close friends from this group, and they all stop at the house off and on almost every day. It's never a Dull Moment. I just love living with V, Jaime and Chad. Katie will hold a place in my heart because she understands me in some ways no one else does, and Nico for being the bluntness that she is. Rory, I cant forget you being as nice as you were when you and Sarahle went with me in April to see my grandfather, and how you tried so hard to keep my spirits up with what was happening, I still feel like I owe you, but I always am really grateful. And of Course, recently, Sarah Smith has been easy to talk to about certain things, and I cant forget that.
and of course, my plan of road of life, I want to go to school for either communications in audio/visual, or in public relations. I'm trying to get into fredonia state being I got out of Jamestown with my associates degree.. and i'm hoping that I can get in for the spring... and i'mm going to try real hard.
oh, and the obvious, if you havent been able to tell about my icons and stuff, i really like japanese Anime!
Not to mention all my friends i made everywhere, you all mean the world to me
welp, time to finish work and get myself ready to go downtown and enjoy V's 21st birthday party if we're all going downtown to the bars tonight. I hope I didnt bore you all. later!
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[29 Aug 2002|10:05pm] |
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I swear, I was glad that i got most of my comics... ( no wait, ALL of my comics) Done yesterday in two and a half hours, because shit hit the fan in terms of keeping up with negatives, negatives going to bitmap format (for those who are newspaper lingo deficiant, meaning the ads looked CRAPPPPPY! >.<) and Bob getting to be in a bad mood alongside Tim Brown!
I need something to take my mind off of it..... hmm... what to do what to do....
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[28 Aug 2002|07:31pm] |
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Welp, i’ve been watching alot of new anime (being that I can’t get online to update this as much as I want to, but this is a few of what i’ve seen so far with being out of the house:
Sister Princess
TOTALLY ADORABLE! The whole group of Sisters and Wataru is just too adorable for words! Wataru is rather cute too! And i did find a whole bunch of different ways to say “Big brother” in japanese.... arigatou minna-san
Mahoromatic
Another rather cutsie anime done by ishin digital. I think it’s rather interesting with the assassin maid who wants to serve for her remainder time on earth. Another cute gainax moment
Azumanga Daioh
Awesome anime! My group with Ishin is working on this (Send me more guys!) I’ve seen up to episode 12, and it’s so awesome! It’s addicting though too! I hope that I’ll get to see the whole series.
Trigun
Yes! It’s official! I had a taste of Trigun!! It’s too awesome!!! Vash is so cute in the half sexy, sometimes dorky fashion ^_~. I really need to buy my own copy, but thank god for room mates who have it
Utena Movie
Another plus with my roomates having stuff i never saw, it was really drawn well. Story plot was okay, but i like and give most anime a chance, so :-P
*yawns* between being put on zoloft, getting a cold, and working so much, who knows what my life will hold. Ah well, it happens, hope you all are well!
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| The drum of family visitation on a day that i moved out |
[24 Aug 2002|03:21pm] |
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Yeah, so it's the first official week that we all have moved into the new place. And this is the week that the rest of the "Crew" will be coming back to visit as well.
Sarah M. is with chad as we speak, ~V~ is down in Dunkirk Visiting Ally I think, and Jaime was sleeping until the others somehow stop and visit. Rory i think is back today, I know Nico is here and went to mart of wal with Paul, and I dont know when we'll expect Katie to stop in... maybe tomorrow.
Uncle Dale, Aunt Linda, Kyle and Timmy and Maggie are here visiting, prolly cuz we all have to spend as much time with grandpa as we can, knowing that things are going to be short soon, and we need to make all the time we can....
..it sucks to know he wont be with us much longer, but it's hard to keep a straight face and keep going
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| hee.. my lj trading card gang! Mite yo! |
[23 Aug 2002|07:48pm] |
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| Fallen North Star is a girl who has held onto nothing but her hopes, dreams and wishes. She is living presently on her own away from her mother who she loves dearly, and her father who never appreciated anything she ever really had done. She hopes to extend her strengths far beyond the normail medium. She keeps her mind set as a bright light of hope for others, although she has fallen from grace. |
| Strengths: friendly, easy to please, kind, loves to make others happy, creative, loves to sing, |
| Weaknesses: very low self esteem, doesn't see herself well, is saddened really easily, quiet, keeps opinions to herself when meeting new people, cant express her feelings for someone else |
| Special Skills: telepathy, empathy, writing stories, singing, reading interesting things, learning anime and japanese, very good with computers |
| Weapons: favorite pen, brush, car (heh, uso da ^^) |
| Dream: dreams to be working in Communications in either public relations or audio/visual, as well as maybe on the side be a good writer/poet as well. |
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| POCKY!!! |
[23 Aug 2002|07:31pm] |
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AUGH!!!! Anyone know where there is pocky cheap i can send money or someone send pocky?!?! AUUUGH!! You cant find it around here and i had some sent to me and it's so addicting!!! HEEEELLLLPPPP!!!!
NANDE YANEN!!!!!! @_@ @_@ @_@ @_@ @_@ @_@ @_@ @_@
gomen gomen... it's the medication talking... they started me on zoloft and now i feel strange... who knows... I may start talking with an osaka dialect... or maybe it's because i'm feeling the stress of my life... or maybe because I CRAVE POCKY!!!!!!!! AUGH!!!!!!!!!!!
.....tasukete.... *THUMP*
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| Day... six of moving in |
[21 Aug 2002|01:19pm] |
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Well Everyone, I figured i'd just check in to see how you all are doing. You wonder what i'm doin on? You wonder how the hell I got online? *gasp* OMG! She got online to actually *update* her livejournal???? Heheh, it's called the Media Art lab without school starting yet!!! BWAHAHAHAHA... *cough cough* Okay, so I'm a little low on sleep and I actually have two days off from working for 3 weeks without a day off.... BUT WHO CARES!?!?!? I can go all night long and be hyper.... ~ALL NIGHT LOOOONG ALL NIIIIIGHHT...~ (little 5th element reference there my l33t comrade, for good time sake ^_~)
Anyway... a little update on how the house is going:
1) Jaime, V and I are pretty much moved in. Chad should be coming today to finish moving in. I still need to bring my desk and my desktop computer to the apartment... I MISS MY BABY!!! (and yes i am calling my desktop my baby now.. WHAT HAVE YOU!?!?!??! :P) It's REALLY really nice. We have a decent sized living room, kitchen with an ISLAND. WOOHOO!!! and a nice dining room and four bedrooms. My bedroom isnt all too bad, but It's rather a nice place if i do say so myself. We're waiting to hear from chad about us all sitting down together and figure out what we ARE doing about the internet situation (so if worse comes to worse, i may just update still time to time here at the media lab, at the grandparents house, or if i can snag my rent's computer, i'll update there, if not the least i can do is update quick from work.
Grandpa... I guess you can say grandpa is okay, he's not good, and yet you know he's never good. I've been really worried about my grandmother though, she's been trying to take sleeping pills to help her sleep, and mixing them so she knocks herself out for a few hours at a time. I know it's hard to deal with the coping fact that your husband wont last much longer because of brain cancer (and yes, it's official that he has brain cancer and it's much worse than what it was) but I know that if the Lord takes him home, it'll be much easier on him if he did. I hate seeing him suffer and I know the rest of the family hates to see him suffer as well.
Anyway, i think that's enough ranting and such too that I have seen. Anyone want to get a hold of me and either email me, it's [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<mail to:kumagoryu@lycos.com>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Well Everyone, I figured i'd just check in to see how you all are doing. You wonder what i'm doin on? You wonder how the hell I got online? *gasp* OMG! She got online to actually *update* her livejournal???? Heheh, it's called the Media Art lab without school starting yet!!! BWAHAHAHAHA... *cough cough* Okay, so I'm a little low on sleep and I actually have two days off from working for 3 weeks without a day off.... BUT WHO CARES!?!?!? I can go all night long and be hyper.... ~ALL NIGHT LOOOONG ALL NIIIIIGHHT...~ (little 5th element reference there my l33t comrade, for good time sake ^_~)
Anyway... a little update on how the house is going:
1) Jaime, V and I are pretty much moved in. Chad should be coming today to finish moving in. I still need to bring my desk and my desktop computer to the apartment... I MISS MY BABY!!! (and yes i am calling my desktop my baby now.. WHAT HAVE YOU!?!?!??! :P) It's REALLY really nice. We have a decent sized living room, kitchen with an ISLAND. WOOHOO!!! and a nice dining room and four bedrooms. My bedroom isnt all too bad, but It's rather a nice place if i do say so myself. We're waiting to hear from chad about us all sitting down together and figure out what we ARE doing about the internet situation (so if worse comes to worse, i may just update still time to time here at the media lab, at the grandparents house, or if i can snag my rent's computer, i'll update there, if not the least i can do is update quick from work.
Grandpa... I guess you can say grandpa is okay, he's not good, and yet you know he's never good. I've been really worried about my grandmother though, she's been trying to take sleeping pills to help her sleep, and mixing them so she knocks herself out for a few hours at a time. I know it's hard to deal with the coping fact that your husband wont last much longer because of brain cancer (and yes, it's official that he has brain cancer and it's much worse than what it was) but I know that if the Lord takes him home, it'll be much easier on him if he did. I hate seeing him suffer and I know the rest of the family hates to see him suffer as well.
Anyway, i think that's enough ranting and such too that I have seen. Anyone want to get a hold of me and either email me, it's <mail to:kumagoryu@lycos.com>kumagoryu@lycos.com or you can join the Board of Outcasts and see what craziness.. just look for the Fallen North Star (who is me, hehehe, the supreme Demi-Goddess ^_^) or on occasion i'll be online AIM as RogueJediHealer, or MSN as salikenobi@hotmail.com
Let me know how you all are doing and I miss the people I talk to online all the time, take care guys. I'll update soon! |
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[18 Aug 2002|09:06pm] |
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Well, the moving is slowly coming along, but i think we're all getting used to it. Jaime, V, and I were all at the Farm Festival today, then watched the parade past our house on the Front Porch. There was a drum/brass group that ROCKED! The cadence they placed was well slick and done.
Well, after that we hung at the house for a bit, I went to work, got classifieds done (which is wear im at now) and ended up hearing Bill went home till 9pm... sheesh! I did get to drop sneakers and stuff at the apt and got to see Chad. He wont be officially back till wednesday, but that'll be nice especially if i can get off wednesday and thursday night to spend the day with the room mates.
Anyway, nothing else going on, started an MKR fanfic if anyone is interested in reading it, here are the links:
MKR: prologue
MKR: Chapter One
Well, enough for now, lemme know how people are doing, email me at the email to my website! Ja minna
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| Moving Day -- half over |
[17 Aug 2002|01:23am] |
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Yeah, i know what you're thinking, i'm typing when i should have already moved right? Well, the apartment looks really awesome, but my room is smaller than i anticipated (but easily rectified when i figure out HOW To store stuff in there normally). Mom and I are going to be going prolly to the store tomorrow to see what else to do with buying storage for the room.
Jaime is comign tomorrow, ~V~ is there right now. I'll prolly more than likely sleep there tomorrow night or sunday night, depending how much stuff i can get moved over there in terms of my comp, TV/VCR combo and stereo... we'll have to see right?
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| Crazy day tomorrow........ |
[16 Aug 2002|01:18am] |
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Welp, tomorrow's M-day... meaning it's moving day. 1) i sitll gotta find my keys with my work key and my other house keyes, and 2) i gotta get up in 6 hours and drive all the way to where Jaime is cuz it'll be hectic... so i will go install my few remaining programs, then i'll fall asleep....
oyasumi minna, more tomorrow after part of the hell is done with
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| Time is ticking down... |
[14 Aug 2002|10:26pm] |
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Welp, T-minus two days and I myself, Jaime and ~V~ will be moving into the house. Our house... it's hard to believe that i'm actually saying that. I'm excited, and yet it seems like it's not happening. I have my anime videos and stuff taped, but that's perty much it.
Mom's been really good about helping me with finding things that i would need for the house... like finding some good deals on food, saying how we need to find me one of those mini apartment type coolers for my room, ect. I never thought i'd see her help me with it, but mom and I were always much closer than me and my father. Dad hasnt yelled at me as much, but we arent as close as mom and I and i dont think that him and i will ever be as close ever... in the words of Rory, "He never had the swing of a parent from the beginning." and i'm slowly starting to see that
Work has been pure and absolute hell the last couple of days too. With Bob on vacation, I havent been able to take a vacation day off, and i have packing yet to do, laundry to get done, and i'm going to help Jaime bring all her large stuff back with her from her home early friday morning (plus going to work that night because of bob being on vacation, no one could give ME a vacation day... god this place sucks -_-)
Anyway, i'm finding out that Joel and Hong were in the process of putting together packages for me, pocky, anime and who knows what else... who could ask for anything more?
Well, i'm looking at the 20 some negatives backed up in the processor and am cursing being at work when they dump everything on you at once, it gets to be a pain in the butt. Damn them sending it all at 1020pm... damn them to hell
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| Lack of sleep for something good |
[12 Aug 2002|08:49am] |
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Yeah... so because I was so awake last night after watching Rayearth 2 last night... some wierd OOC/IC ness happening... and this was part of how it went... where i ended up being Hikaru... Joel(yume_no_hikari) took the incentive for a while to be Mokona (squee) and my Hong (my beloved Shinju ^^) took the role of my favorite Eagle_Vision! Now if only Keiichi-san would have been Lantis...all would be well...but it was still fun now... let's see if you can read all the cut breaks, if not just click on the one and you'll read them all ^_^:
( The reunion )
( Sweet Saving )
( Adorably cute )
i swear, sometimes i really know i'll miss those two the most... out of everyone in the forum, they're definitely two that I Call taisetsuna no tomodachi.... zutto.
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| Moment of Creativity |
[12 Aug 2002|01:54am] |
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This just hit me after watching the second season of Rayearth 2... and how Lantis might have felt about Hikaru... right up to the end. and yes, it made me want to write an MKR fanfic i'll put up on my website at a much later date; Damn CLAMP storylines... they just make me want to write sappy stuff! and because i'm sensitive, i sobbed at the end of the plot!
( Without You )
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| Hmm... |
[09 Aug 2002|09:37pm] |
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Been thinking about alot of stuff, some good, some bad, but then again that's everyone isnt it?
Good Stuff
1) How much i'm loving photoshop 7.0 and the fun i shall have making icons and sig pics and nothing short of glorifying Ryu-chan right on my website! Pika pika no da Ryu-chan! *giggle* ^_^
2) Thinking how I want to write a story about Gravitation, but there shall be a twist into it that i want to do... and the only person who knows is my gravi buddy mixedfruits... and i shall say the phrase, "Sore way himitsu desu." ^_~
3) How some music (like the joyous brand of Kotani Kinya) is so soothing and yet so hyper.
Bad Things
1)Grandpa (hey, he's always gonna be on my mind)
2) How someone had gotten ahold of my XP disc and snapped it in HALF (Chad, could i burn another copy from you when we're all moved in?)
3) about my missing mp3s (*sniffle*)
4) If i'll get those discs from hong and Joel (ne? yaksoku?)
Okies.. time to make my new wallpaper with Ryu-chan! ^_^
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